Drowning

Standing surrounded by people, I feel so alone.  My heart feels like it's been torn in two.  It hurts so much.  Everything seems to be aimed at reminding me that I am not pregnant any more.  A group of friends sent me a gift, to say how sorry they were and that they were thinking of me.  Aromatherapy bath oils - the packaging reads 'not for use when pregnant'.  A sweet gesture but one that hurts so much.  I packed away my maternity clothes this morning.  I hadn't bought much and really hadn't actually needed them yet but it still hurt.  My baby is dead.  My body failed.  I posted a picture on IG saying that I'm hurting.  Drowning in my secret pain.  No one responded.  I guess no one knows how any more.  What do you say after you've said you're sorry?  It doesn't matter, it doesn't help.  Nothing helps.  Nothing stops the pain.