Not Pregnant

Well today is 17 days post ERPC and pregnancy tests are now showing negative.  I am completely and utterly no longer pregnant.  There are nothing physical remaining to show for the last 3 months.

I feel awful.  Emotionally I am on a rollercoaster, lows, deeper lows and ok moments.  Nothing I would describe as a high though.  I went back to my GP and she has started me on 50mg Sertraline.  I feel like I can't face anything until I have some sort of chemical support helping me along.  Unfortunately I am not doing brilliantly physically either.  I have developed a kidney infection so am feeling pretty rough and particularly exhausted.  

I'm so ready for 2015 to be over.  I was so excited for it to be here.  I entered it fresh from my first loss, but certain that good things were coming instead I have had heartache after heartache.  Hopefully 2016 will bring my rainbow...