Another day, another pregnancy announcement. This time my sister in law. Worse still her due date is 8 days off what mine would have been if I hadn't lost the 2nd one.
I've been struggling today. Tearful and low. Not myself at all. I just wanted to stay in bed and forget everything but I made myself get up and go out. I did feel better for it but still not at all right.
I am spending most of tomorrow with pregnant friends. Not what I want to do at all but I also can't hide away at home.
I know things will get easier. I know I will look back and it won't hurt as much as it does now. That my experiences will make me stronger and make me appreciate what I have now and anything I may have in future but right now it fucking sucks...
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