Odd one out

4.5 years ago, 6 weeks before Rosie arrived I took a series of ante natal classes.  I still maintain that it was the best decision I ever made as the ladies I met on that course are some of my closest friends.
Rosie was the first baby to arrive, followed by the other 7 over the following month.  One family drifted away but the rest of us have remained close.

15 months after the babies were born, the second babies started to arrive, until there was just me and one other lady R, who had one child each.  R always maintained that she only wanted one child.  The others grew closer over their second rounds of maternity leave whilst I and R had to continue working.

I found out this evening that R is pregnant.  Not only that but she has been TTC for 2.5 years and this baby has finally been conceived via IUI.

I feel awful, completely selfishly so.  Firstly, I am now completely the odd one out.  She was the last one of all my friends to also only have one child.  Secondly, I have to watch yet another close friend go through pregnancy when I am still not pregnant.  Lastly, I now feel that I cannot justifiedly be upset that my journey has been so long, when hers has been so much longer.

I am happy for her, how can I not be when she has gotten what she has wanted for such a long time.  I wish she had shared her struggles with me and I am sad that she didn't feel she could - even after I had shared some of mine.

I am so selfish...