Today I would have turned 37 weeks pregnant. Full term. Excitedly ready to meet my little one, so ready to be done with being pregnant. When I lost Snowdrop the one thing that have me comfort was the likelihood that I would be pregnant again before I would have been due. Unfortunately this hasn't worked out.
Today is CD14 of cycle 11. I am still waiting to ovulate. It doesn't really matter if I do or don't though as this month we're NTNP. I have too much else going on in my life right now and I can't add TTC into the mix. I am still tracking but that is just so I have charts to show the gynae when my appointment comes through in the next 4-6 weeks.
The last few weeks have been bad. Snowdrop's loss is haunting me. My job has gone bad - I'm being made redundant and my house purchase is on the verge of falling through. I've been signed off sick from work to rest and am just trying to get through one day at a time. I hope that once this is over I will never have to go through a time like this again. I wouldn't wish it on anyone...
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ReplyDeleteSending you so much love. The milestones are so hard. You are strong, remember that. xxx