Feelings

I am struggling to deal with the feelings that TTC is throwing at me.

I feel so sad that we are not being given the opportunity to have another baby.

I feel guilty that Rose doesn't have the sibling that she would love to have.

I am worried that she will grow up spoiled and never know the support and friendship and closeness that siblings bring.

Above all I am angry.  Why me?  What did I do wrong?  What did everyone else do better than me?

Every night I pray that this is the cycle, that I will get my BFP.  I don't think I am strong enough to keep going through this...

(5 DPO, Cycle 8, Month 9)