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This last month has been particularly difficult.  I have now been trying to conceive our 2nd child for 9 months, 8 whole cycles.  If I had conceived in our first month of trying, I would be approaching my final weeks of pregnancy.  If Snowdrop had stayed with me, I would be around 25 weeks pregnant.  If, if, if...

This cycle I'm taking a different tack, I'm not tracking, temping or using OPK's.  I'm purposely trying to ignore where I am in my cycle, to forget about TTC and to just concentrate on the myriad of things I have going on in my life. I guess you could say we're NTNP now.  My blood tests came back clear, my hormone levels are good and I seem to be ovulating regularly.  I've lost 28.5 lbs in 13 weeks and am healthier and fitter  then I've been in a very long time.  All that remains is for me to try and do the age old cliche... Relax.