Sensitive

I'm so irritable tonight.  Everything is annoying me.  Particularly all the posts on Facebook and Instagram whining about pregnancies/babies.  I know this is irrational as I know that when I was pregnant with Rose I was the biggest moaner out there (in my defence I did have a particularly tough pregnancy!).  I keep thinking that they don't know how lucky they are, I would do anything to be in their shoes right now.  I know that's wrong too, of course they know how lucky they are.  I'm way too sensitive right now and I need to try and chill.  Easier said then done though.

I think that much of this sensitivity is because Cycle #4 of TTC #2 is drawing to a close.  I'm on CD32 and either 11DPO or 14DPO (Fertility Friend doesn't seem to really know which.  I've had a really good chart and my temperature has stayed  high but today I started spotting.  Not a huge amount, but it's red and I think it's a sign that the witch is near.  I'm fully expecting a big temp drop tomorrow and AF to arrive shortly after.

So Cycle 5.  What am I planning on doing next month?
- I plan to still temp.  For me it's not the most accurate as my sleep patterns are erratic.  Rose still often wakes in the night which means that I often temp after less then 3 hours sleep or after disturbed sleep.
- OPK's - I ran out this month but have ordered more, if they don't arrive in time I'm not going to stress, I'm just going to try and follow my body's cues.
- Metformin - I'm now up to 1500mg daily, having gradually increased my dosage over the last month.
- Weight - this is the biggie.  I'm around 28 lbs heavier then when I fell pregnant with Rose.  This has to go.  I plan on going back on Slimming World and will blog about my results here.

So that's my plan.  I need to keep looking forward.  The past and present are painful at the moment.  I need to remain positive, my turn WILL come soon.