In my case no news is definitely not good news. I am currently on CD8 or maybe 9 (can't remember!) of Cycle 7. I will not be having another baby in 2015. The age gap between Rose and her future sibling will be nearer 5 than the 4 years we originally intended. I will not get to spend her first year of school on maternity leave which means I am going to have to find alternative childcare. I'm so sad. I'm starting to wonder if it will ever happen or whether it is just an empty dream.
I don't really post very often now as each post seems more and more negative. I have a doctors appointment on 13th April to see what my options are. I hope she'll arrange blood tests to check my hormone levels and whether or not I am ovulating, and perhaps refer me back to the Endocrinologist who I was seeing previously. Meanwhile I am just carrying on as I am, temping, trying. Waiting.
Tuesday, 31 March 2015
Saturday, 21 March 2015
Frustrated
Today I am 12DPO and going by my chart (and the BFN's I have had so far), it is yet another bust. Cycle 6 is almost over and I still have nothing to show for the past 7 months. It hurts. I've worked so hard, I've lost weight, I've taken medication that makes me feel crap and I've woken abruptly every morning so I can take my temperature. But still nothing... It sucks!
Sunday, 15 March 2015
No Hope
Today I am 6DPO and I have no symptoms whatsoever. No sore breasts, no cramps, nothing. I no it's still really early but I have absolutely no hope whatsoever that this cycle has worked. I'm not even holding my breath until I can take a HPT. Most unlike me!
My chart this month is shaping up post-ovulation as very like last months chart, very erratic, up and down with no obvious clues why. I just want this cycle to be done so I can move on to #7 (8 months trying).
In the better news category however my weight loss is moving along well. I've lost 14.5 lbs in 6 weeks and am now only 14 lbs off the weight I was when I fell pregnant before. I'm hoping this is good news and it means that my BFP is not too far off. I've also added some fitness into the dieting and am doing the 30 day shred, and for the first time ever really enjoying the challenge of pushing myself. I did 5 days in a row, then had a (planned) day off, then got sick and had 4 more days off so started again. I have then done another 5 days and had the weekend off. I plan to do 5 more days, have the weekend off and then start on Level 2. I can really feel the progress, just got to keep it up!
My chart this month is shaping up post-ovulation as very like last months chart, very erratic, up and down with no obvious clues why. I just want this cycle to be done so I can move on to #7 (8 months trying).
In the better news category however my weight loss is moving along well. I've lost 14.5 lbs in 6 weeks and am now only 14 lbs off the weight I was when I fell pregnant before. I'm hoping this is good news and it means that my BFP is not too far off. I've also added some fitness into the dieting and am doing the 30 day shred, and for the first time ever really enjoying the challenge of pushing myself. I did 5 days in a row, then had a (planned) day off, then got sick and had 4 more days off so started again. I have then done another 5 days and had the weekend off. I plan to do 5 more days, have the weekend off and then start on Level 2. I can really feel the progress, just got to keep it up!
Wednesday, 4 March 2015
15 weeks
Today I would have been 15 weeks. Snowdrop would have been around the size of an orange and the lumps and bumps of my tummy would be starting to smoothe out. But I'm not pregnant. I'm not going to have a baby in 5 months time. Instead I'm stuck in the neverland of trying to conceive. I hate it :(.
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